been home a week. it's just as wonderful as i remembered, and i'm loving it just as much as i hoped i would. well, maybe not quite as much - have been studying lots and lots of computer science for an interview in brea on tuesday for a fellowship that would be wonderful to get, except that it starts on june 30th. which would mean that instead of the whole summer with my family that i was expecting (the only real perk to being jobless after graduation), i'd be out the door forever in 15 days. probably not forever, knowing me, but potentially forever. also, who am i to be applying for computer science jobs? what do computer people do all day? code stuff? code what? all of these interviewers ask me what kind of job i am looking for and i have nothing concrete to tell them so i have to come up with things like "interesting and challenging opportunities at innovative companies such as yours" except i stutter a lot when i say it out loud. what is it that i like to do? make cards. write letters. work on perfecting the details of stuff that is really important but actually not really important at all, like zombie musical dvds, im crew subs, spreadsheet formatting, and color-coded t-shirts. let people know that they are important. provide help when it's not extremely necessary but still appreciated. listen to people talk about their passions. learn about other people's passions so they can become my passions too. figure things out. find interesting and awesome details in articles, website, pictures, and people. look things up when i want to know. be sometimes outside and sometimes inside. read clever things and hear worthwhile words. get to know people well. stay up late whether i should or not. play with my dog (maybe this generalizes to spend time with people who are excited to see me). eat foods that are delicious.

to be fair, i do know why i'm looking into computer science - i really did enjoy the classes i took when i was up-to-date on what we were learning, and computer science is the best way to start working with robots. my enthusiasm robots has been the one novel academic(?) realization i've made over the past four years, so i may as well go for it, right?