too early for this

just watched the episode of felicity where noel graduates and started tearing up thinking about leaving the people here. there are a lot of people i'll never see again and, even though we're friends now, it won't make too much of a difference when they're not a regular part of my life. there are others who i'm going to talk to all the time and who i'll see a couple of times a year, i'm sure. there are some people, though, who mean a lot to me and who i actually care about, but i already know we're not going to stay in touch. jon's whole blocking group, for example, and maybe even jon himself. alex komoroske. mike badgley. what are other people's plans for staying in touch? do we need to make some sort of pact, like we'll all be in the same place at the same time at least once a year? what if we only get together at weddings and reunions? what if we don't even get together at weddings? what is life without running into stefan or yonas every couple of weeks? sundays without krystal walker? what am i doing with my summer or for that matter with my year, and how is it going to help me figure out what to do with my life? i would love so so much to be home, but i would absolutely hate to be so separated from everything and everyone harvard. i think what would be best is if everyone moved to san diego. yes??

in other news, i just finished two awful awful weeks of schoolwork and commitments. i haven't been that stressed in a really long time, and truth be told i'm not sure what i would have done without the help of my home teachers. everything finished today at 6, though, and it feels really really good. i just remembered that i have an interview with the bishop tomorrow for my patriarchal blessing, and that feels really really good too.